I recently took an acting workshop with Tarquin Alexander; a casting director for the hit ABC show “The Middle.” It was a great reminder of why I do what I do. I love to act. I love comedy. It was so fun to laugh and experiment in these sitcom scenes. It was great to be in a room, not a set or a stage, but a classroom type setting. And just act. Doing the scene fearlessly and taking risks. I was very fortunate to be around “great” comedic actors. It took me back to the days of classroom theater. All the stuff that prepares you and the stuff that shapes you before you walk on an actual Hollywood set or right before the curtain rises in a 100,000 dollar production of a Broadway musical. I have had “breakthrough” moments in my career but it’s not enough. I want more. I have to keep going. The heartache is the worst, but it’s also the most rewarding. It’s just the nature of the business. It hurts and it’s tough but it’s also the best job. I remember, my first acting job. I was an orderly on the medical drama that did not last, Miami Medical. Formerly, called Miami Trauma. I was so nervous, I reported to set at 5:30 a.m. shaking like crazy. I remember being dressed and having a long and fascinating day on the Warner Bros. lot. I saw the studio tour shuttle go by and the people waving a taking pictures. I mean, it’s a pretty fucking cool thing. These tourists were taking pictures of me like I was the next new sitcom star. I mean, It could have been that Cuba Gooding Jr. was standing behind me. But still, I feel lucky to be in Hollywood. I feel lucky to have worked on the shows I see on TV, the actors I’ve seen all my life, and my day job is at one of the biggest film studios in the business. I sometimes go jogging on the Universal Studios Backlot. I mean, who does that? The first movie I ever worked on was at Universal before I worked there. I was a Spanish civilian, running with the bulls, in the movie “Knight & Day” with Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. Who gets the chance to do that? I want this so bad. I want to have it all. I think… I will get to the point where the career obsession for the work & fame will get so crazy that I will have it all. I will make it. Everything has a price I’m slowly learning. I do want the Fame, I just want it in a different way. I want the career longevity more though. You can be a star one day and a fucking train wreck no one wants the next day. All I have to say is: Charlie Sheen. Tom Hanks is someone I respect and someone I got the chance to work with in “Larry Crowne” starring Julia Roberts. He was directing and starring in his own movie and I got to witness a small portion of it. It was mind-blowing. Now, that I am here though, I can say it’s not what I expected. This is real life and this is a hustle. It’s every man for himself and when your chance comes, You better deliver.
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