I was ready to kill someone an hour ago… I’ve spent hours/days/weeks looking for a scene to do for an Agent Showcase I have coming up here in Hollywood. I was giving up, contemplated canceling, cried, and slammed my hands down the kitchen table. They still hurt, Ouch. I found myself staring out the window pissed off. I was being dramatic… yes, I was. But it’s because I was frustrated that I couldn’t find something that showcased ME. Obviously, acting is playing other people, but when showcasing for an agent ….you want to show the best side of yourself as an actor. I finally found a scene that does that and I am so relieved. I was beating myself up for feeling like I didn’t put 100% of this into my intention. I have had other things on my mind and it clearly caught up to me. As an actor, You have to know what you can play & what you can be booked for. At the same time, there has to be challenges….I was getting obstacles plus I was having fun. Fun equals no work. I’ve had boys & booze on the brain, which is another blog titled, CRIMINAL. I am writing this blog because I am manifesting my own destiny, Folks. Yes, I am performing a scene a couple of times this week for several agents that are going to basically fight over who wants to sign me. I will be sign, credited, and will sail on to commercial success and the opportunities will be endless. I really am looking forward to the new year. I have to say, sometimes… all the things that used to be important seem so small…. especially when it comes to your career. At the end of the day, the clock is ticking, and you don’t want to wake up one day and wonder what the hell happened? Just before you give up, step back and breathe. THINK. Where do go from here? What should I do next? THEN. Let it be. If you know it’s right and you follow the signs… the road will lead you there.
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