Meeting people in Los Angeles everyday is a constant reminder of the classic saying: One day you’re in, the next day you’re out! Let’s just say… there’s always a new set of “stars” waiting for their chance. Or maybe you already had your shot and now you work retail. It happens. This is a huge pond and I feel like I’ve swam around enough to really know the “area.” I see where I want to be, it’s just a matter of getting there. There are people around me all day everyday that have “made it.” They’ve seen glimpses and previews of the magical world of: making it. Even when your inside, you must be willing to fight to stay there. People don’t always stay in the spotlight. Singers, Actors, dancers…. it’s all the same. Its one job. Yes, One job can change your life…. but at the same time, it’s just a job. There are no guarantees in this business and you must remain relevant. On to the next job. You have to be a chameleon and you must know who you are enough as an artist to be able to evolve. If you can’t grow and learn to expand your craft….chances are you will stay limited. This limitation is so evident around me.. I see it everyday. People that have come so far and end up on square one again. I say square one because after every job its back to square one. You must find the next job, it’s always a hustle. I can see why people give up… I can see why this can break you down. I see why people buckle and turn to the nightlife. Turn to the parties. Turn to the drugs. Am I willing to put myself through this? Am I willing to fight to keep succeeding in this dark business? Truth is, it does not matter, by the time I’m ready to answer another opportunity has flown by. Even friends… can get weird. Sometimes, I can sense the competition just when discussing the business, which is good… it means they are “determined” but even with friends, I feel the vibe… the vibe of: Move! I’m getting this. Not you. It is pretty cut throat sometimes. It’s hard to trust people. This “pond” that is called Hollywood… its pretty black & white just like the old movies. The black representing the darkness, desperation, and the struggle. The white represents the spotlight, the fame, & the fortune. I wish I could go back in time, I would love to be part of the Old Hollywood. The glamour, the scandals….. it was just easier to cover up back then. Let’s just say… I can’t wait for my scandal. I’ll have my star. “It’s not true that I had nothing on. I had the radio on.” -Marilyn Monroe


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